Posted: 11/4/2008
How exactly do you define "college life"?
A period of time of absolute promiscuity?
A period of time of intense intellectual depth and realization?
A period of freedom?
I try very hard not to label and/or define the experiences that I have not yet to take part in. Despite that, however, I can't help but always expect something. Does that make sense?
I don't know exactly what it is I'm hoping to expect, it's just this feeling in the back of my mind when I'm out with my friends, when I'm at a party, or any large "liberal" social event.
Should I let her flirt with me?
Should I let him make a move?
I find myself in situations where my morals are constantly tested--and man, it sucks.
Is it wrong to indulge?
Is it right to let the opportunity pass by?
Every situation differs, of course, but the uncertainty still remains.
I keep telling myself, "Whatever. Whatever happens, happens. I'll just take things as they come--unexpected, unpredicted."
--and then I get excited.
I also get scared.
What is it, exactly?--What scares me?
I don't know.
